u walk down the hallway & into the bedroom
u wake ur mum up & ask her to sign ur permission slip
she screams at u, 冷心的孩子 (u cold hearted child)
u try to force urself back into ur body
but u can only watch urself
walk down the hallway & into the bedroom
& rouse ur mum & get screamed at again
u want to be back in ur body now
but u r pulled back; all the way back this time
past the living room, and the other bedrooms, and the kitchen
and the window. the window in the kitchen
thru which u notice the sun
and wot u think u are morning sounds
and there is sth there; with the sun and the sound
and the melting of ur cold <3
But before u can judge urself for seeing this
or doubt whether it’s real
Adult T appears
and she steps in front of tiny T
who is still just standing there in her school uniform, holding the permission slip
in her tiny lil hands
And after this blip everything goes quiet
Ur adult body is absorbing all of the screaming
Ur not facing toward ur mum; but urself
U have ur arms around small T
Ur hunched over her so no part of her body is exposed
And she just stands there in her school uniform, holding the permission slip
On which words have now appeared
But before u can read them
Or doubt whether they’re real
You start to cry
because u cannot believe that after all this time
You get to save urself
